Ever Feel Like Giving Up?

Title says it all, eh?

It's my birthday.
It's been a week from hell.
Thought today would be better....
but it went to hell in a handbasket fast.

I'm sorry I'm not good enough,
I'm sorry you feel I don't do a good enough job.
I'm sorry I love my children
I'm sorry my feelings, emotions, and questions are too much for you.

I guess I want too much out of life,
I want
to work
to play
to enjoy my kids
to enjoy my family
to never be homeless again

Yet...
it's too much to ask
Don't worry about me
I'll make it somehow

Attack me if you must,
Yell, scream, accuse
All while I stay calm and try to explain myself...
...my words
....my thoughts
.... my questions

I don't expect you to care
I'm not one of "them"
And I never want to be
I just want to care for my loved ones without judgement
To be treated as an equal...

But again, I ask too much and for that...
I apologize
I recant
I absolve you of your guilt in this matter

I take all blame,
all responsibility..
...For I am human, I make mistakes, even I

I'm sorry I don't fit your mold..
Your expectations...
Your desires...
Your hopes...

I wish thee the best...
..
...